- I did 2.5 miles on the eliptical in 30 minutes. That felt awesome. I am now an exercise junkie because I wake up looking forward to the time I have to myself getting that high.
- I made 50% of dinner and 100% of dessert with Jack's help. I like cooking. I just hate the cleanup.
- I have been healing really quickly from my surgery last week. However, this just proves that BDR is right about more things that I want to admit to.
- I loved watching George and Noah and Eriq on the TV tonight. It felt like old times. The end of the shows makes me feel really OLD.
- Why the hell do these doctor shows have to do the kid episodes so much. Don't they know I'm watching.
- While I'm glad I exercised today, I don't like how I feel about myself lately. Not just my weight, but this adult acne is killing me. And while I know I could have more to complain about, I am doing a semi0decent job of mentally beating myself up for it.
- If I weren't exercising I'd be looking for another way...
- But first, I need to give up McDonalds. And dessert. But those things help me get through everyday shit.
- I had a nice reminder today that I could be a far worse mother.
- I tried to have a discussion with Curious J tonight that I was trying to help him be independent because I love him. This was prompted by J telling me that I leave him because I love him. (I think he's talking about school).
- Jon Stewart is my hero. Daily Show kicked ass tonight! Don't let him fool you, he could be a real news reporter if he wanted to.
- Sometimes, I wish I could go back, not to a time necessarily, but partly to who I was before all this time has passed. I miss some things. I miss acting and singing. I miss that confident person use to enjoy performing. (Yeah, that was the other side of me.) I miss old friends. Damn you facebook for bring up all these stupid feelings. ;)
- I don't miss that self conscious girl I use to be. I'm working on the woman, but she has her off days.
- I think I am both self centered and self conscious. Is that possible?
- I have a few very good friends out there that I hope they know that while I suck at being a friend sometimes, I love them and would do almost anything for them (that almost part will be the things that keep me out of jail). But this parenting thing and my inability to filter important and unimportant keep me from being the quality friend I use to be (or never was).
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Thoughts
I'm in random thinking mode so bare with me.
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I still think you're odd for enjoying exercise. I wish I could be one of those people. I only do it because I have to. How else would I maintain this rockin' bod? :P
ReplyDeleteI'm taking it upon myself to consider myself one of the very good friends you're talking about. (If I'm not, don't burst my bubble.) And I think the parenting thing makes you a better friend because you understand the issues that your other parent friends are going through. And you have us to help you filter. Because we'll tell you what's important and what's not. :P
I cooked with my kids the other night. They LOVED it. I wish I could let go a little more and do it more often but I get so annoyed with my small kitchen and all 3 of us in there trying to cook something usually ends badly.
ReplyDeleteI also have a love/hate relationship with Facebook. I look at all these people that I went to high school with who are in solid careers and just starting their lives. Getting married, being in love and whatnot. It kinda makes me miss that independence where I didn't have to rely on anyone and no one relied on me. Ah, well. I guess, on the bright side, my kids will be out of the house while I'm in my 40's. =)
I can totally relate to looking at others' lives and wondering. Especially what some of these people have accomplished. It's funny I never knew some of them had such talents, and here they are all successful and shit.
ReplyDeleteThe more I read your blogs, the more I think that we are a lot alike. As I was reading through your random thoughts, it was almost like a checklist, "Yup. Me too," I would think, or "Oh I completely know what you mean!"
ReplyDeleteWe should never watch those episodes of hospital shows together, where the focus is on a sick or dying child - it would be a big, sobbing mess!
Just when I think we are so different - you go and say something that makes me think "wow, we really are alike!"
ReplyDeleteKnowing that I've watched ER for over HALF my life makes me feel a little old too. And yeah, I hate kid eps on there because it means that something terrible has happened to a kid. I haven't watched last week's ep yet but I'm looking forward to seeing the whole gang back.
ReplyDeleteAnd yeah, while I'm doing it, I kind of enjoy working out. Once I get out of the habit, I can't imagine dredging up the energy to do it.
MT likes to help cook and TB says he wants to cook. Generally, his brand of helping cook involves arguing with me when I tell him to do something. He never wants the jobs I give him so usually he gets kicked out of the kitchen so I don't have to fight with him anymore.
I saw ER this week (finally) and I think this is by far one of the least icky kid episodes the show has ever done. So the baby was abandoned, you know Banfield is going to adopt him. I was SURE the heart patient was going to die and that would have been really crummy.
ReplyDeleteDana and I went to college with the heart patient. She was a drama major. Shocked?
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