Friday, April 23, 2010

I bid you all an ambien goodnight

When I lost Bub in September, I was heartbroken. One song gave me some kind of comfort and for the past day or so, I have been thinking about it and about Bub, and Jack and Ellie. My kids. I love them all. I won't be able to really explain to everyone that my 6-week-old fetus died, but his name was Bub, and we loved him. That info is more for close friends and family. So here and now, I say to you that I have had 3 children. I will only be raising two of them, but there will always be 3 in my heart. Goodnight my sweet children.

Paul Simon's Mother and Child Reunion. Here are the lyrics:

No I would not give you false hope
On this strange and mournful day
But the mother and child reu-nion
Is only a motion away, oh, little darling of mine.
I cant for the life of me
Remember a sadder day
I know they say let it be
But it just dont work out that way
And the course of a lifetime runs
Over and over again

No I would not give you false hope
On this strange and mournful day
But the mother and child reu-nion
Is only a motion away, oh, little darling of mine.

I just cant believe its so,
And though it seems strange to say
I never been laid so low
In such a mysterious way
And the course of a lifetime runs
Over and over again

But I would not give you false hope
On this strange and mournful day
When the mother and child reu-nion
Is only a motion away,
Oh, oh the mother and child reunion
Is only a motion away
Oh the mother and child reu-nion
Is only a moment away

Paul said of the inspiration for the song, "Last summer we had a dog that was run over and killed, and we loved this dog. It was the first death I had ever experienced personally. Nobody in my family died that I felt that. But I felt this loss -- one minute there, next minute gone, and then my first thought was, "Oh, man, what if that was (my wife) Peggy? What if somebody like that died? Death, what is it, I can't get it." And there were lyrics straight out forward like that. The chorus for "Mother and Child Reunion" -- well, that's out of the title. Somehow there was a connection between this death and Peggy and it was like Heaven, I don't know what the connection was. Some emotional connection. It didn't matter to me what it was. I just knew it was there."

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